TurquoiseLove

New phrase of my life

2010-02-05T05:13:00.000-08:00

1st Feb 2010, a new start of my life. This journey is not going to be an easy one. I have to do a drastic change in my lifestyle, my atiitude, my way in adapting to different people and culture. However, I am really enjoying every bits and pieces of this moment. Sometimes I will reflect back to what I have learnt in Crown and applied it here; initiative. Not too much, not too little. Too much, people might just find you being a stuck-up or trying to bootlick. yea :)

I wana do it well and I know I will... No more distraction.

read something that he wrote today on his blog. Thought that he is really someone I like, I want. I guess I didnt expressed my feelings and actions well enuff last time. Never a single moment I stopped thinking about how closed we were before.
Can I just say that, I miss you?
<3 :)

ok, im gg to sleep now.. cant wait for the reunion steamboat w shi qin edna long ma seb stacey and all tomorrow!! :)

dont let anger cover up the truth

2009-10-02T08:19:00.001-07:00

i learnt a new lesson today.

Never let your anger cover up your heart from feeling, your eyes from seeing, your brain from memories of good deeds... ...
i rmbr the expensive bills from taiwan. i rmbr the mms bday cake from taiwan. i rmbr the lily. i rmbr the rings were so precious.
i rmbr the batam trip. . .

Thank you.

thinking back.

2009-09-29T04:33:00.000-07:00

now the more I think back. I realised that a few times I was right. Like you are on phone with another girl thats why u hang up my calls faking you want to sleep early,but when I called 3 4 times, my call was put on 'hold' alws....my call was a 2nd line. I knew something is amissed. I didnt trust but its you who alws saying why I dont trust you. You are alws doing things that dont earn my trust.

and you are such a loser man. U actually blogged something that U sent me when u first met me on ur blog to your so called new girl. OMG. U R SO NOT CREATIVE. I LAUGH HARD AT YOU. dont mk her next victim la plsss... sometimes i realli pity you. sighh..searching and wanting so hard for chinese girlss...haha.. u suits malay gers more la. all covered up w tudong. u dont allow ur gf to wear revealing wad...hahahaha! AND YOU ACTUALLY STILL BRING HER TO WHERE YOU FIRST BOUGHT ME TO WHEN WE WERE DATING. OMG omg omg omg. i pity tt ger now.

yeaa..today Boss is great. <3 He protected me from all my enemies~~~~ hehee.. I did some paper work stuff wrong and they wan me to do the amendment again.. I went for lunch and my boss walk out of his room asking my enemy whyy the paper is stuck somewhere & not processing?...so i quickly show him n tell him whyy. He then took the paper from me and say its ok, no need for admendment or anything!!!!!!
This kind of boss where to find??? omg la. I bet he saw the paper on my table when i left for lunch lor..just asking for the sake of asking cos i never tell him abt it, moreover i did tt paper detail for him one.

this boss is superb right??? and where got Boss telling you tt he is hungry.. like so weird to hear it from a Boss's mouth. LOL.
i dont like to be scolded by him.. i feel guilty for not doing something well..like letting him down. and I dont wana leave a bad impression on him.

Yesterday was Convocation for my graduation batch. I missed it. Cos of budget issue. sigh. nvm.

Life is good?

2009-09-25T20:39:00.000-07:00

1week has passed. Life is good. Evrything seems to be the same. Work is good. :)

Im so broke now. staying home n slack this wkend. Will go out shopping next wk!! must!! haha..
ever since i started working i have been real broke. and i dunno where my money have gone to mann. sicko.

received a sms from him on wed..thats a day b4 our 1yr together. well well... no much special feel, but i replied rather attitude back.
a: promise me that even we are not together, you must take good care of yourself k? :)
ME: i promise. anyw, we together or not makes no diff, i have been alws taking care of myself oso.

haha shuai ba me? ;p ok, theres a thing i wana clarify is that, because we seldom meet..like only once or twice and we dont do much things together that is so memorable for me to rmbr or miss (except when he was wooing me in ths first 3 wks....)
sigh.. guys eventually chged alot...drastically la i shud say.. arsseee. or only malay boys?!!!???!! haha!

someone taught me this...if you miss someone, go to sleep....sleep and sleep.. yea, and i slept at 930pm yesterday.cos i m missing him. and i dont wan to.

politics.

2009-08-17T06:08:00.000-07:00

what is wrong now? i am just simply showing concern for our new colleague and in the end i got " accused" of will cause trouble for others. well, ok, just let me knoe that u just merely wana protect urself from trouble. Dont have to make it sound professional that I am being busybody. I believe my position don come easy. I gotta gif feedbacks too!! I was told that everyone is equal in the office, and hello? its merely concern. I dun wana have any conflicts in office. I treated everyone as friends...i can be dumb or naive in ways like just blurt out wadever i wana say or say things stupidly. tts me. I dun wana hide and backstab. I can see that if in office if we want, everyone can be nice to another. we dun even hav to hide behind gossiping abt one another man.
im just super turned off that someone actually said used wad boss has said me b4 to say me back again. totally no link!! argh. whatever.

2nd day. departure.

2009-07-17T06:03:00.050-07:00

its 9pm friday night. im not convinced by your reasons. i could see lies through your eyes.
what can I say now? I can only accept all the shit now. Since when i am given the choice?

Last night, i decided to destroy myself and unleash. i drunk a lil too much beer and got high ard 1030 alr.
I knoe what i m doing, i am still conscious but i don wana live to it. i unleash and i was so unglam. cry till my eyes swell outside
Halo Bar. i know its all useless.
turn "merlion" after i slept for a few hrs. headache hurts like mad... received his sms at 5am.. called him at 6 because theres no one home to ask for help. mum n bro left for work. next closet kin i could think of is him. he didnt tell me what to do to cure my headache but scolded me for drinking. in the end i ate 2 panadol and gradually fall aslp.
i am really really tired after all this... when will I start to slp as normal again?
i wish he is here with me right now. sleep over my hse tonight and irritate me by talking non-stop while i am trying to slp.
i miss you.
turn on the radio, class 95fm. and they r playing Only Love-trademark

But only love can say
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun wil shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i cant make you see it through
Thats something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousands miles apart
i've tried my best to make you see
Theres hope beyond pain
If we give enough
If we learn to trust

But only love can say
try again or walk away
but i believe for you and me
the sun wil shine one day
so i just play my part
pray you'll have a change of heart
but i cant make you see it through
thats something only love can do

i know if i could find the words
to touch you deep inside
you'll give my dreams just one more chance
to let this be our last goodbye

repeated almost 50times listening. meaningful har?
tomorrow is saturday. its going to be hard, but I know i will pull through :)
jiali jia you! rizal jia you too!

13th July.

2009-07-13T17:35:00.000-07:00

im yearning for one cup of fresh ice blended Java Chips Frap, a poodle dog and seeing you.mayb not.

i hate this shitty job.
i miss doing art..
i am feeling so vexed.
i just want to go away.

May of 2009

2009-05-10T00:00:00.000-07:00

Its May of 2009, mother's day today. my family didnt celebrate today. im so sorry for my mum, cos she still has to go to work.
..and im feeling damn lethargic nowadays. i feel like doing what i like freely-shopping, jogging, sun tanning, sleep all day long, drink n drink n drink.. oh yess, talk abt drinking, i had a superb awful beer yesterday at Gastrobar over at bt timah road that is near bt timah hill. Anyhow, the apple martini is a thumbs up thou :)

sometimes i wish nothing had ever happened and like fairytales, happily ever after.

i need to seriously think about the jobs i am going to find now. shit. its like ADULT LIAO HOR :( cant i jz stay in lasalle forever and do art n only art and stay 20 forever?? haha..

oh. my friend, Gary, rest in peace. May u find peace in the other land:)

days alone together :)

2009-02-22T18:50:00.000-08:00

its a bright warm sunday.its the first meet up after he returns from taiwan.
i met up with him over at his place b4 leaving for some window shopping :)
weeeee~ finally its the 2 of us only. hahaha.. we went suntec and marina mall..
marina mall scenery is really really nice!
tts him and me!

listen to Breathe Slow by Alesha Dixon

2009-02-20T23:15:00.000-08:00

i love the lyrics, i really do. no, dont tell me its pms or im thinking too much.
baby, sometimes u make me so happy but when things turn bad..i got neglected.
i wana say.. because i care thats why im saying out how i feel bout it all this while.

ok. . . . breathe slow now. and focus on schoolwork.
Warning Letter from school totally make me freak out!!!!!!!!!! No 'PRAY PRAY' ok..ha

Celebrated my 21st bday with the whole group and i really am very happy :)
received afew presents from my friends. like

agnes b.necklace from melissa.
200 hongbao from boss.
anna sui make-up case frm jade.
sexy lingerie from the boys!
c n keith bag n legging from the girls.
c n keith clutch from raymond.
polaroid camera from angela.
30 from an.
Burberry perfume from Kareen
****(i hav yet received.hehe) from karen
Batam trip from Baby :D

i have bought for myself a Loewe Wallet
and Ipod Touch :)

THANK YOU EVERYONE!!! i really appreciate the presents u guys gave 2me :)
i miss you baby. no vday no bday. but nvm, lets enjoy ourselves over at batam :)

this love..

2009-01-10T20:30:00.000-08:00

school just started. and yes, i happy and overjoyed because i get to do art(smth i love doing) and see every friend from fine arts!!! weeeee~~ :)

all i cud say was, i was tormented badly, scarred and i threw away my pride once..twice(now for him).. i dunno wad i shud do now. it seems like how hard i try, chge, he is stil the same. yes, he chged, but at times, im alws wondering where do i stand in his heart. ACTIONS SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS. do u see how hurt i m at times? and u chose to just sleep ur day away. and do u know what i want?? or have i demanded too much? no..i dont tik i m.
and u r only happy without me around..oh well..at least thats wad i think. sigh

ok..assignments loading up.. i wan to score this time round! MUST!

Counting down to November!!

2008-10-27T01:13:00.000-07:00

..and yes im back after so long. I have got so much to blog tonight that i have to put it short and sweet. :)

for latest updates(wad u guys hav seen on my facebook and frinedster, yes, im attached.) im attached with a guy that i cant believe it myself too. HAHA! but i treasure this fate given and i promise him my everything, because he is special. :D
He is none other but Rizal Phan aka Alvin Phan.

(Top) him sitting down playing with fire stick. (below) and me playing with mine. We are celebrating our 1 month ann!!

-Applied for 'ahem*' job and i am going for the interview on 31st!! wish me gd luck ok?? i realli hope and am praying.
-Sem 1 assesment on 17th nov........and HOLIDAY~~~ i cant wait for holiday mann..

These few months after sch have started, I have been busy working and attending classes no doubt i still pon a few but i tried my best to keep up and balance. Anyway, in short, i just wana say that im tired of working and schooling at the same time. it is really stressful and you tend to lost contact with more people outside. Moreover now i am attached, i am even more unwilling to work.sighh~

This year, Diploma year, we have to come up with ideas known as Conceptual Art. Art work which can be consist/made of/done by anything and in a conceptual way. ok, in short, have a good back-up/explaination of ur ideas and works. haha.. sounds easy...no no.. its no. long process of work is needed and explaination is not the crappy kinds.
(not gonna elaborate more..)
after serious decision and research(actualli the idea was indirectly by rizal. one day when i was on car with him travelling on the road, i saw him unwinding the window and simply just threw the tissue out!! this makes me stop and hit me,not literally,but bcos i haven been littering for years! someone close beside you doing it just makes you feels funny.hha)
i decided to do on Trash. on the 3Rs and to chge ppl's perspective in looking at the smelly unwanted trash. yeaa.. and it will be in drawing,pen drawing of trash in automatism.
will upload my final works pic up after my assesment. for your visual pleasure. well...well.. :)

i miss ah gong. whenever i see an old man alone or near me..i will think of ah gong..

i got choked by my tears.

2008-06-22T13:51:00.000-07:00

i just felt like blogging today. today is my grandpa's 49th day, everyone came over to my place and
offered joss-stick to him. is my grandpa able to feel it or receive this love from us?

i miss u, grandpa. everyone say grandpa doted on me the most and guess wad, i disliked him to the core
in the past when i was stil living with him. He watched me cry, watched me grow up, let me out to play when my mum lock the gate.
He shared a bowl of laksa with me and i just cant help thinking back helping him pluck his spiking goaty when i was young.
i used to complain his 'smelly' medical oil every evening and the oily phone that he had used.
we always regret the very moment when we lost something. and putting the 'if i were to', 'if i'. . .
grandpa's departure is too sudden. i was late..late by an hr. i was working..and if only i left shop earlier... grandpa will still go i know, but at least my presence could tell him that i still care and at least i came. and my biggest regret is, i went late to pay visit to him on CNY this yr. sighh.
i did sigh more than a hundred times yesterday today...perhaps, tomorrow too. can everything be rewind?
sometimes late in the night, i would watch tv alone and try walking oout of my room hoping to see my grandpa.
yes kind of crazy..but..i realli wish to. sit right beside him n tell him not to worry anymore, go peacefully and gif him JIALI'S CUTEST KILLER SMILE ever :)

my lil gallery :)

2008-04-27T23:59:00.000-07:00

Finished with the setup, shall wait till tomorrow 5pm go back school and collect it back.
most imptly, i eevn had the floor mopped. yea~ settled. look forward to holiday now :) PARTY TIME~~~~

(bottom are artworks done by ME) ;ppPPppPpp

(bottom)the overall look of my 'little gallery'. Im one lucky bitch that has gotten this biG space. :))))

( bottom are some works done by my classmates. CAM-WHORE BABES~ )

( zad and meeeeee )

(bottom) this cig can last yoou 3 months..puff till u dieee..haha

its time for me to stop brooding thinking hoping.
phuture this wednesday :)

isomnia attack

2008-04-18T21:49:00.000-07:00

havent been sleeping well lately. i have got so much things to worry and im feeling stress.
whenever i close my eyes preparing to sleep, i just cant stop thinking about my school works..
im left with "found objects" projects and getting all research together and i will be done, but i dont know..im feeling
really stress. i failed my essay writing and we had written test just last week. i need to get at least get 20/30 to pass
my overall. if i failed to do so, i might retain. :( i might..not too sure, but theres resubmittion after everything.

ok, below are some paintings for your visual pleasure. the first one is done by me :) this work is in series under my last project where we are to propose what we want to do. Which link it to our next yr, level 2 diploma.

this face portrait with purple and red roses is done by a level 2 diploma student. pretty right.. i love it very much!!

they are from my batch. thats jus a few..more to come. and those painting not bad right.. seriously very very competitive.
you hav to think, imagine, research research to backup your ideas and for their painting skills. so dont think that art is easy peasy... thats all folks :)

13th april. down. really exhausted.

2008-04-13T23:57:00.000-07:00

went rounding in seb's car to mt faber and upp Thomson rd at 1am. the lights that flashes in the darkness really caught my eye..
but i hav got no mood for them because i urgently needed the toilet!! grr! hahaa! but thanks! i have been trying to pamper myself for a good outing after a long boring mugging on the art philosophy. -.- if i passed my essay..i wouldnt nid to mug!! argh~ angry. gotta really work hard n score this semester mann.

havent been to Zouk for a month ever since the last bad experienced on friday. It was realli that bad. Or shud i say, horrible!
the actual dancing music started only at 1am!!! so mayb gg phuuuture on sat mite not be a wrong too. Ok, having said so much, i seriously miss clubbing. not for anyone, but i seriously am missing the music. the music goes bombom bommm makes me happier and free from the hectic society.

ok, went rounding and slept at 4am. WAKING up at 745am and went for badminton at bedok. all for priscilla. TO ACCOMPANY HER! :X *IF YOU ARE READING THIS PRIS, IF U GUYS GET TOGETHER AS ONE....HIAK HIAK..LOVE ME AND CHERISH HIM! :D *

went home got chged and went to work straight.zzzzzzz. im dead beat by then. but more shocking news...... :(
don ask wad shocking news. ask me. totally affected me. met up wit pris at night and drank vodka. abit crazy..but ya..

dreams are more precious. written test on 15th april. painting assesment on 21st-24th april. get an B? hehe~

happy birthday Ken

2007-12-09T23:37:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday to KenKen!!! its his 21st bday!
with four colourful notes from soon heng, priscilla, Bevan and ME! disturbing condoms such as the glow-in-the dark kind, different animals condoms and boxers!! the caricature was drew by me!! hohoho!
enjoy and happy birthday 2 ken!! =) friends forever!

and im feel that im missing out something ..i need love.

wat a day?

2007-10-28T23:26:00.000-07:00

M i lucky or unlucky?? im supposed to knock off at 830 but ended up leaving far east at 10pm!! argh... bcos my key was stuck in my lock gate! the key broke into 2!! hahahah.. im poweful har... and it cost 80bucks to get it out! shitty..the way i see the locksmith do it, i felt so cheated. like damn easy.
but gd thing is tt my sales is good today. so m i safed from my boss's scoldling??keke.. im scare la!!!! wad will she do to me? cut my pay? scold me?

arghh..nowadays i kip having this thinking tt i wan to quit my job now. yes, gd pay, relaxing, boss is gd.. but bcos theres alot of contact with regular customer so sometimes wadever we do, we have to realli watch it and "behave". smile n "act" helpful........sighh.. no way n not time for pms when im in shop..hahaa. i realli duno..if i quit, where shud i work????

on my way home, guess who i saw.. my 4yrs ago ex -.- ok..of cos..i acted blur..hehe..

just this wed, we received our last assigment-still life. gosh.. my portraiture is not even done yet. my comics strip not done, due on the 12th, my printmaking is half way......arghhhh.. wad kind of life i m having now man. F!

lets go to the beach...scream our lungs out....i realli nid to..

im back again

2007-10-17T23:37:00.000-07:00

yea, im back to blog again. theres nothing much for me to blog about tis time, but i just feel lk doing so. haha
i left 5wks to my "exam" which we called as Assesment. feeling realli stressed up now. A few days i have been staying till 10plus in sch to complete my paintings. tsk. and i neglected my complementary workshop-graphics novel..Comics, to be exact. i ahven touch any hair on it la! tsktsktsk. strressed upp not bcos its hardd,but ALOT to complete!! wad m i doing?!

nahh, don ask me about bgr now. 5wks later then ask me :) complicated and complex. yet so typical me. HAHA!

yea..i miss phuture!! hopefully jan trip to Thai will be successful mann.. yeshh~shopping spreee

little india

2007-09-16T01:18:00.000-07:00

any chinese been to little indian?? singapore little indian? haha.. i went last fri.
goshh!~ was cool i tik..u r able to find nice emboidery shoes there. but not cheap! $30! haha.. took some pics on lil indian street for my cityscape project =)

yes..thats a small part of little indian street. now to friday clarke quay night.

yea..im missing phuture mann.. and when will i see ya again??

time flies~

2007-09-06T23:37:00.000-07:00

everyday 10-8pm painting n painting.. lunch n dinner all in school. i guess this is the life im gonna have for the next 2 yrs.
good thing is.. im getting used to this life now =) was busy rushing over the 10 landscape paintings lately. gosh, and i really tik
Daler Rowney is my new boyfriend now.hehe. and before i could finish the first assignment, new assignment is here-Cityscape.
im LOVIN fine arts, my studio, "my life" now.
SCREAMS~~~~~
JIA YOU JIALI!! GO! GO! GO! HAHA..

yea..been teased quite alot lately too, for helping a guy( from all along i thought he is GAY! TURN OUT HES STRAIGHT!) GOS..it has been YEARS ever since i got teased about such stuff. one word- childish. i hate it. she better stop it.

i love secretly admiring u. the stranger in my life.

blogging again

2007-08-14T16:47:00.000-07:00

im here to blog again finalli =)

schooool started ytd. and at the 1st day od sch, i mixed up my time. supposed to reach at 10am, but i reached at 1030. haha
and i missed my orientation of cos. after which, ...........(don wish to say alr) feeling pretty lost in the new campus.
toilet nowhere in sight. everywhere is glass window, fake grass..people..the noisy music! ha!

sneak peep of my school open space

its not a very "convenient campus" to study at.how shud i put it? hmm.
like whenever we have to go up to level 4, or travel ard the sch, we need to take the lift!! and the lift can only can contain less than 10PEOPLEl. gosh~ so imagine the time wastage...

wed and thurs we r heading to sugei buloh for some drawings. :)

~~i miss phuture~~

boring week ahead

2007-07-13T18:51:00.000-07:00

nothing happening stuff happened this week. pretty boring..
but hey wait wait.. gonna have sushi feast with my bro n jiayi later =) tata...

fri party, boring sat, work out sunday

2007-07-01T23:06:00.000-07:00

Fri: met up wit aaron at jurong mrt. was late =X and at outram mrt wit adriel..late again..
reach farrer park mrt(okok why go all the way to farrer park is because i want to get a bag from Mustafa! =p)
ard 5pm and adriel complained that we will be late for sch party because e party starts at 6pm. Then again,out of nowher n dunno how..we found MUSTAFA CENTRE! hahaha! did a quick quick quick shopping and i found the bag! =)) *shines*
got onto the cab and Lasalle party..HERE WE ARE. . .
the main stage..the lightning effect was gooood..
and it all started off with cam-whoring..adriel kissing me! so les can...-.-

we left sch at 1030 and everyone departs seperate way from there. well, for me, home sweet home =)

Sat: went to work at Angelux today. 11-9pm. met up wit priscilla n jiayi and headed to ken's condo... DANG. . .
nth exciting happened over ta his place. but i tik his bunk mates enjoyed themselves very much.(not for us though =( )
well.....wad can i say. . .bored. left at 3am.

i miss Zouk.

Sun: nth much today too. mum continues her nagging as usual,loud n firece. and as usual, i just hide in my room playing computer =p
Gym with eehui at 530pm.. shiiiooookk~ haven been exercising like this ever since i started working. i miss badminton, miss the athlete me. sweat like no tomorrow..i like.

Zouk next sat!! must! must! must!

sushi feast again! =)

2007-06-20T21:36:00.000-07:00

brother n i were both at hm.....
suddenly,
bro:knock knock. wan go hav dinner at west mall?
sis: ok.eat wad?
bro:anything
sis:dunno. later den say loh.close door..
after 1min...
ok, lets have sushi
bro:ok.
Thats my brother!! eating all he can!! haha.. yummy!
my fav cha soBA! the green cold noodle..
yummy.. this meal cost us $44.. my bro's treat!!
(aya..shud hav eat more.. eat till he pok-broke) hehee...

i dreamt of Mr K ytd. wit kareen, karen in the scene. since its a dream, it cant be true or BE TRUE in reality.. ='(( sigh

i dunno i act cool for wad...duh...

2007-06-16T09:07:00.000-07:00

its sat 12:20am now. guess wad,im home..online,playing friendster. kpo on wad is on with tt "fayelene". no comments.flirt.
i slept well last night,finally. the headache was stuck in my head for 2days alr! i sneezed blood out whenever i sneeze.i guess too heaty alr. nvm..now im super duper GOOD~ haha..=)

went cine with karen. shes as usual,late again.. i tot i m the 1 who is gg to be late,so i rushed a cab down.and it cost me $15-.- and karen was even later than me LA!
in the end karen treated me 3plates of sushi in return =p hehe

shes counting money!! hahaha.. damn funny la..
shes realli different from my other frenz..she walks into shop tt i don even bother..look at stuff tt i gif a glance.bargain to shop tender like no other aunties. loves chatting to me bout wad other gers don like to(not other gers don lk to..but not repeatly)yea..N she doesnt mind. shes special.

after food, we headed to heeran for some window-shopping. yes..window-shopping!cos im seriously broke.
as i was toking to karen..(miracle) i told her tt i hope to see "k" at cine later on.. AND i saw him at the crossroad!!omg! its so omg cann. karen n i were stil chatting happily away playing ard like some stupid arse. "K" waved n gaved tt short-sighted eye look. we waved back.
yes..only waved back to him n walk off.
cool.but...
my hart sank after that.
regretted.
i look back. n i saw him looking back too.
i have to act. need to.
hai.
wad more can i say now?sounded so drama. its real n so true..
i shud jz walk over n chatted with him.
i did walk back to the traffic light.but hes not there anymore. out of my sight,totally. =( drop to 0%...
zouk-ing now boy.

tmr my first day at the ladies boutique. like an "try-out" for me tmr..im not CONFIRMED yet. arrsee!
wish me luck=)
gd night...

one wk blog.

2007-06-14T07:20:00.000-07:00

ahh! i wana enjoy life now! how i wish that money will drop from sky..i will jz lie on the grass n fall aslp with the money..
hello?hello? wake up...haha.. nah, jz feeling tired now. Mitju is making me sick. starting to hate working there. wana start a new
job,new beginning.
hoho!! new beginning..makes me recall of our results.. i've received it n i passed! scoring an av. of 61.67,C. Well, im contented. =) new sems, new classmates,new building...gosh.. i jz cant wait for aug to come.. =p

ya its me..=X

ths the japanese crispy seaweed! yummy!
and i miss sushi. . . kopkop*

ok.. now back to monday. working at mitju arcade.reach workplace at 930 and immediately got scolded by mic. she was shouting all the way in the fone. *pissed* too much. . i cant stand her anymore. least hear her voice again!aRGH. and immdiately on tues i went fora job interview at far east and i got it! the pay was damn high mann! =) SET..im wokring there.hehe..
took on 14/6,mitju arcade.
fri working at far east..boring. heard that there is new stocks coming. my god. my clothes will get dirty. alone tending shop again.. mitju has got mi scolding bad words from A-Z...zzzzzzzzz... 15/6 mite be the last day at mitju.

god-damn f busy..tiring..

2007-05-29T09:39:00.000-07:00

mitju arcade is on SALE! everything going at ONLY $9.90!
realli busy n ya...again..endless phonecalls-.-
during lunch hr,Viki n me were like mad dogs..haha.. running here n der.. and gosh..
typical singaporean..office ladies..even when we shout at them to WAIT..dey oblige obediantly-.- cos of the $9.90
if its on normal days, i BET they be asking for boss's no. ..wana complain us. shit.
yea..but time flies =)

the day b4..11pm..i will not forgt the date n time =) happiness moment. but i tik i faired badly =X i wana chat wit him again!!

i miss sch. i wana stop clubbing soon...ya,mayb when my sch new term starts. not stop totally.but not as frequent alr.
i hope i can do it mann.

he used to be the one

2007-05-20T22:16:00.000-07:00

no tears(at all). no more topic on him(from now on). bcos, some words go unappreciated. some tears go unseen. some feelings go untouched.
nah, im not tt emo to the CorE man...but decided 2 freed myself from the "nO-nO". any guys intro?????

attending phuture regularly. now, feeling kinda bored.
its always the same processss n "stuff".music comes,we dance.people squeezing and "free-show". hey hey,but i stil like the music.

i had a new hair cut!!!!!! haha N i LOVE IT!! =))) no one suits short hair better than me mann ;p (self proclaim! jk)
(camwhoring wit xiaohui n karen wit my new hairstyle)

its straight...looks BOB but not. i look like im 17 la~ tootoot...

i miss sch. but wait..let me earn more money first.. =)
enjoy life to the fullest now!

just another casual entry

2007-05-12T18:37:00.000-07:00

its a wkend today. worked half day at mitju..real bored..

my father has just built 2 CAMERAS at my house corridor!! exactly the same one as mitju is having.haha
and ya..im living in HDB flat..so its kinda weird to hav two cameras at corridor..haha..

tonight im gonna enjoy myself at phuture-zouk..for sure and yeS..dance to the music! hoho! adriel alexius alfred dareen will
be there too tonight....yippeee! i really cant wait for the night to come asap as im
bloging n trying to pass my time now..zzz
finalli i can see him again. . .=)

this holiday

2007-05-08T21:35:00.000-07:00

holiday is finally here. for me to work n work..earn all the money n spend it!! i cant wait for my pay day and simply spend it all!! haha just a lil mad ;p

went phuture last fri..but..nah..din really enjoy..lots of resons to it.but i slept well tt morning =)

"some tears will go unseen. some feelings will go unfelt. some words will go unappreciated"
hang on girl..you can pull it thru..it is definitely worth it.

im not sick!! having dry cough

2007-04-25T21:30:00.000-07:00

feeling real tired today. felt that as if i have just worked out for hrs ytd.
in fact i was doing my blue foam..the results sucks ok. sigh
yea... from one solid rectangle block into some weird shape. u THINK ITS EASY...go ahead n try.. u will lose 1kg after doing and muscles tonning!! hahaha.. not exaggerating.its true ;p

cant wait for fri 27th to come. its Phuture Relaunch party! first 100 will be waived. hopefully i m. haha.. yea.. and wish me luck for 30th my assesment day. =) gonna miss the gdman rd Lasalle-SIA.. the graffiti..its cool.

"let me be your sunshine" ^^

thanks alot ken

2007-04-18T00:06:00.000-07:00

hey ken. thanks alort for the gift. really...i really appreciate that alot alot.
very nice of you. making me feel guilty, feeling im really a lousy fren.
ken, i will alws be der for u. frenz forever bro =)

i dont wana be emo.but i cant stop.

2007-04-16T22:33:00.000-07:00

Jesse McCartney- Just so you know
i shouldnt love you, but i want to.i just cant turn away.
i shouldnt see you,but i cant move i cant look away.
...
and i dont know how to make the feeling stop
just so you know this feeling getting control of me
...

ok this song is really Meaningful. well,mayb for the rather down me now.
dont ask me why.

haha..ok..now for some happy stuff. was doing my blue foam at my hse corridor,when
my neighbour kid started tallking to the maid who was doing laundry.
kid was saying,"why that AUNTIE look like cARPENTER?"
jiali *stunned. omg. nvm, i forgive that innocent boy. hhahah!
blue foam is fun.but it really take up time and strength. keke.
enjoy =p

week 13 of sch

2007-04-12T13:05:00.000-07:00

im back!! will try my best to blog as regular as i can..haha.

yea.. last thurs down at zouk was really the happiest ever ever since i started
going to zouk on regular basis. =)
tonight we shall hit zouk again! seeing him just brighten up my day..hee

its the 13th wk of sch alr. 30th of april will be my assesment day. so called "eXAM" haha..
internal,external,collage,blue foam creature, painting to be completed by next wk. argh.
sometimes i really wonder.......... wad m i going to do in the future after i grad wit a fine arts
diploma? continue my studies n get a degree?..teaching?sales girl??office girl? many many negative thoughts jus
came to my mind.
sigh. (thanks mel..u r alws there when i needed ur words to spur me on)
adriel,alexius,melissa,kelvin,jiawei..even if we r in diff class,diff major,we will stil get together sitting down chatting
crapping ok! promise!

week 9 of sch

2007-03-07T23:23:00.000-08:00

new semester.new term.new assignments.
decided to major on Fine Arts. not comm d.,not fashion,not media arts
yes, Fine Arts. and im so so ready to go for it now.

went Zouk last sat..guess wad i encounter.new experience!my goodness!
a dead drunk WOMEN in the toilet.(u might say its common)
next moment...she is out sitted down kissing away with this guy.
the guy's hand was all over her body..and his hand unzip her pants,
digging n digging..as if theres gold inside..my goodness..faint.

and i saw the same grp of hip-hop guys again. =)

on my way home in cab with ken(my 6yrs buddy,in case u ask who he is),
he jz broke the news that he is leaving for Taiwan for ns on the 18th.sad.very sad ok.
till Oct!!!!! im gonna miss him..alot alot.....
thats ken with me.
girls out there! he is single n available! haha

keeping my option open

2007-02-25T16:31:00.000-08:00

24th of feb. new experience. to Zouk!!! it was gosh damn happening!
u see how people dance in Trance music..like doing some leg exercise.
(well, good for the leg curb) HAHAHA!

i was dancing in Phuture dance floor..it was super cramp. and of cos, i jz stick to my grp of
frenz and dance. whichever guys come along behind i will jz move. =) i am still me =)

after the night in Zouk. i decided to keep my option open. I guess for the next 1year i will jz stay single =)
and im starting to have this dislike for guys with have got no patient,n bad temper.stay out from me.
maybe because i hav had enuff from him last time.

when is my next holi??i cant wait!

2nd day of cny

2007-02-20T13:00:00.000-08:00

2nd day of cny..everyone busy visiting relatives while im home struggling with my 2D final work. to start off really need lots of courage. this a1 board which cost me $18 really stresses me alot. and because it is my first experience on an canvas, i struggle.

till late evening i was out at MOS. met up wit mys ec sch mates-izwan. had mac together. did some catch up with him and i found that he has grown up. HAHA! the way he talks and how he treat someone is different. =)
oh ya! abt this pic with ah gong n ah ma. haha..
izwan asked me a qn,"jiali, when u r 80, who will u be with?"
i turned blank. .....oh,i probably m dead la. haha!
well...tik again.. who will u be with?hmmm.. me?
anyw, i admire the ah gong n ah ma!!! envy envy!

entered MOS..damn.. damn crowded..didnt really dance though..
guess i shall stop here..
wana noe me?askk meee.....haha..

12feb2007

2007-02-14T18:31:00.000-08:00

met up wit shiqin,stacey,mavis and edna at west mall for lunch on 10th.
everything went smoothly except for the most absurb "help" from this waitress. haha.

(21st century style of putting candle on cake :X or china ppl style? LOL)
hmmm...3wishes.. nah, i made only 1wish that day =)

12feb07 arrived. its just another day for me i guess.
i waited and waited..but No..nth from him nor him nor him.

14feb.. Happy Vday to all..
to guys who tiks vday is nth special..pls chge ur mindcept.
i dont tik its mothers' day everyday ok..OR death anniversary! c'mon!

had new hair cut today.shit. i dont like it. oh well, maybe too THIN.. sigh.
met up with melissa..and i feel so les today. haha!

friends forever babes

tiring sunday

2007-01-21T01:02:00.000-08:00

went to work ytd.. sales was pretty gd..and my boss called shop to extend the hrs to 10pm..OT!!
after tt i went to hmv to meet mr lee.. new fren i made from lasalle..haha.. hes nice =)
went to clarke quay "clinic"..boring la.. u can see pretty tall ladies dressed n nurse-kind of
clothes. can see their butts too ;p haha!
then to boat quay "White Bar"..where mr lee used to work at.
wads more...nah.. ask me.. i will let u noe...

back to sch work.. im tired of this no-life style of living.
and i wana do rebounding!!

homework!!

2007-01-16T08:11:00.000-08:00

seriously i dont feel stressful when im in sch,but when im in sch, i felt rather enjoying n relax.
knowing being home i have to start working on my work, there,then i started to feel that being at home
is stressful.every module,everyday there will be new homework for us. classwork is classwork, if u didnt finish ur classwork
in school, den it will be ur HOMEWORK! addition okie.. and of cos..i have loads!! =(
i haven shop for 2wks alr!

life has been rather peaceful these days=) thank all my god.. haha. cherish your surrounding ones

hmmm, suddenly have this thought for v'day.. hoping to get 1000 DRAW OUT roses from my admirer!!
HAHHAHAHAH! okie la.. 100 oso can.. 99 also can =p ok no more discount..haha.. draw out.. special har??
=)

k, back to my 2D sketching! zzzz

=)

2007-01-10T05:51:00.000-08:00

im really happy today,yesterday n the day before. =) and tired. thanks to them

(top left) jia wei,(down)shuwen n alexius. (top right) ME!shhh. melissa n kelvin

with them around..i go crazy..laughing out really loud and i forget simply,anything.
thank god im in L class. =)

i got my results back today!! my goodness.. i have guessed correctly n yes, im satisfied with it.

Lasalle rocks! Im enjoying every min every bit of time in school..
its time ot work hard again n go!go!go!

i have moved on...
hope everythign goes smoothly for me this yr.. hehe..
"giraffe" =p

awaiting for tomorrow to come

tired.

2007-01-08T05:50:00.000-08:00

im too tired to blog today. but i noe its the first day of sch so my frenz might be curious
wad is happening to me. update u all tmr k dude.. nights

sch starting

2007-01-07T13:38:00.000-08:00

woot.. todays blog is really weird. suddenly the time n date at the bottom appear again..haha

ok,so let me start off with yesterday..
went Halo Bar ard 10pm.. drink n drink.. not much whiskey,but pepsi,thanks to Long pa
den had "breakfast" at bt timah.. ordered cheese prata!! yum yum~~ long lost feeling..so cheessyy =p
reach hm ard 4am. zzz

Night life is really giving my face a hard time. Pimples starts growing again! argh.
tommorrow sch is starting. get all prepared.mentally n physically!! yea~
somehow my excitement for sch is dying.. because whenever i think of it, theres this very strong
"streessy" feeling overcoming me. Worse, i haven decided on my course to major on next yeAr!
media? fine arts? graphics? opinion pls..tag me!!

and for some fun,ppl try out this web page
www.jacksonpollock.org

ok. get mentally prepared for sch

2007-01-04T19:32:00.000-08:00

ok. stayed at home whole day ytd. woke up at 2 pm ;pP
actually i cant believe that i woke up at 2pm ya.. hehe..

gonna meet stacey later for some exercise planning we have.
haven being exercising for wks..and im feeling guilty. so today no matter
wad i must jog up to 45mins non-stop!
and talking jogging, im missing secndary sch life. with sports day, napfa..
these 2events r the one i have alws been looking for thru' the yrs.
5secs glory=1yr training

anyone is free on sunday to go out wit me?

let me be drank

2007-01-02T06:57:00.000-08:00

went pub ytd with ehui..
and i saw long pa zy long ma seb ken they all there. with whiskey,pepsi,green tea on their table.
and yes.. i ps ehui n joined them. (theres reason to it)
seb really can sing!! wee weet!

every where i go i heard of ur name. teach me how to let go. argh!! i have enuff!

whiskey..vodka aint making me drunk..
let me be drunk pls..
and im hating this feeling
enough is enough

working today and jiayi n i went crazy..trying our best to pass the time fast..
and guess wad.. sales was good and im very happy. =) cos im "saved".

ok,randomly, i feel like posting this pic....

looks like xiao hui is hugging me from the back. and that makes me wana Laugh Out Loud!!

nitess..tmr will be anotehr tiring day

rainbow..ss

2007-01-01T04:07:00.000-08:00

its rainbow!!!! beautiful!!.
haha im gonna post all beautiful pics i hAve.. =)

Happy New Year

2007-01-01T00:11:00.000-08:00

went to esplanade and watched the fireworks.beautiful beautiful

and before that, xiao hui n i went to Far East Mitju for some small gathering..

we are mitju babes!! =)
ps: i look damn ugly n fat in this pic. hahaha!! eewww
and pls gimme another chance to look better.. haha (below)

better? ;p
ok, wishing everyone a Happy New Year ya.. dont forgt your 3resolutions ppl =)

time to move on....... =)

i thank xiao hui n ying for being there for me whenever i needed company.
and clara, ehui, yixin,long pa..anyone who lended me ur ears ookk..
i love y'll. sincerely. =)

countdown; where to?

2006-12-29T06:36:00.000-08:00

hmm.. we are left with 3days to countdown!! 2007!! its party time!
ok, firstly, im gonna think of my 3 new yr resolution... mmmm....

-Marina Bay Countdown - Spectacular fireworks (If rain, bring umbrella; the event will still go on)
-National Museum - party the night away in its sheltered area.
-Vivo City rooftop - local Mandarin pop star JJ Lin, Singapore Idols Taufik and Hady, and other MediaCorp stars will perform to a crowd of some 4,000 people.

hmmm, im thinking od option 2,going down to National Museum. I wana go have a look at
David's work.. his latest work-Singapore Merlion.
maybe you guys wana check out his web

www.silentstudio.com

David is a very good n caring lecturer. Ok, more than a lecturer? friends? haha..
yea.. =))

so where will u be going on sunday night? wad will u do to allow me to spend the night with you...again? i miss you,i dont wana lie anymore.
teach me how. tell me why.

my experience in Thai

2006-12-28T22:49:00.000-08:00

view from inside the airplane.

everythig so tiny-winy

we have reach Thai airport. =))

this is their traffic light for boat -.-

new discovery.hehe

their temple

sight-seeing

houses by the canal

they have all kinds of colour Taxi.

haha..pink,blue,yellow,purple..cool

sight-seeing.

im lovin' it ;p

we r at their famous wkend market-Cha tu Chak

Thai ger vs Sg ger ;p Thai won!! ling!ling!ling!

up on the ferry wheel

beautiful. is located at Siam Lam

inside tuk-tuk
say cheez!

they have really humougous durians!!

sitting inside the Thai famous Tuk-Tuk

im home

2006-12-27T23:04:00.000-08:00

im home everyone... haha..
wow.. thai was fun n hot... hahha.. as in the weather is really hot. its raining heavily now in sg but
overthere its bright n sunny =)

i enjoyed myself and even met some sg frenz over there. its miracle..hha..
went shopping everyday w/o fail. edna and I will definitely buy something back to our hotel. edna sure make a good
shopping buddy mann.. haha =) cheerios!

ok, in total i have spent $600(excluding air-ticket).. gonna stop shopping in sg for the next 2months!

hmm actually i have alot to blog about but im lazy to type.. ask me if u wana noe more ok.. cheerios!! school is
starting on 8th jan and i haven gotten my results~~ they are such a lier. They told us they will mail to us on 15th dec,but
not a piece of shit from them.

i miss sch..

and i realise u r fading....... =)

its tomorrow!

2006-12-22T04:54:00.000-08:00

its finally here.. my Thai trip.. im putting high hopes for the shopping spree ahead, so
don disappoint me ya =)

and o man.. god bless me with many many cLeaN toilets and tt my mens dont come when im there!!
pleeeassee... haha.. and i will try my best to get wad you guys requested me to get for u all.. i try my
best.. as im not rich,so i try ok..but if i spot any, i will buy. haha

its gonna be my first time taking aeroplane!! haha.. yipee.. flllyy!!

gonna miss my laptop, miss my bed, miss my smell bloster, miss my mum!!

clara just asked me if he noes im gg Thai. i dunno whether he knows or not. but even
if letting him noe. i cant imagine anything good coming out from his mouth. his reaction
might be, "So?" ok.. just f off.. sometimes the thoughts of him really anger me. arse.

ok, wait for my new entry when im back ok.. ta-ta

2more days

2006-12-20T19:13:00.000-08:00

super duper ultra bored. yesterday whole day at home was like hell to me.
one word-BORED. the sun is out n i had my clothes washed..feeling some kind of satisfaction.haha.

ok today im gg out shopping with xiao hui!!
i need to get one mmc card for my digital cam, get small bottles for my trip to put in shampoo
and down to mango..SALES!! woooot~

ok i shall count down to my thai trip and sch reopen day

2more days to thai, 18more days to sch start

endless sorrow

2006-12-18T07:49:00.000-08:00

damn. was caught in the rain just now after work. waited for cab till 11pm!! but its ok la.. cos its free
haha.. jia yi's treat.

met up with darrel after work too. he is just some idiotic humorous guy. he made me really
laughing out loud just now..the laughter that I haven laughed for long.
and the stupid arsehole me went to ask darrel abt him. the biggest regret of dec 2006.
i hope,pray that wad ever he said is not true. if it is, then pleasee..dont forget me~
im missing you..

counting down to 5days...

2006-12-17T02:40:00.000-08:00

relaxing at home today,spending all the time i have in heaven watching youtube adn editing my blog..
my blog now has got more visual..haha.. i just hope my daily entry will not cause y'll to fall aslp =p

haa.. plus i wana add that yesterday's shopping spree with xiao hui n ying ying was like makan sutra manifesto mann
xiao hui spent $20 on diff kinds of food..haha..boo!! she is turning into a pig sooner or later..hehe =p

and miraculously, i spent ONLY $18 on clothes n food.. YEA! praise me yea..

countdown to 6 days!! shopping shopping shopping..facial..massage.. wads more?..hmmm
i cant wait to go Thailand next wkend!! gonna spend my X'mas with edna!! gosh..she is so honoured mann

thats all folks.

bored

2006-12-15T05:19:00.000-08:00

im so bored today.. reached home early and lazing ard..cant slp..
my mind is in a blank..only the word-BORED!

i dreamt of him two nights ago. waking up feeling real tired.

i miss school!! Lasalle Lasalle why.... which course shud i go for? fear of regretting.

counting down to 8days..

tmr i will be gg shopping with xiao hui =)

14-12-2006

2006-12-14T04:39:00.000-08:00

ok,let me quickly update on wad i have done today.

went to work in the morning trying not to be late this time.hehe
and i reached workplace at 10:33am.. still quite ok because the past few days i reach work place at
1040am.. haha.. today working half day at arcade and was enduring the cold air-con.. *shivers

reached home and went to sleep immediately after one cup of relaxing green tea =p
sometimes we must learn to relax ourselves wad.. yi Har! haa

went for a jog at gombak stadium in the evening.finally..finally im running again.. getting fat!!

ok,tts all folks!

9more days to my Thai trip!!

oh ya, this sat is MOS anni..feel like going but...... i guess i shall just look forward to my Thai trip
=)

one phrase can simply just kill me alive

2006-12-11T06:59:00.001-08:00

hais. ok,let this be the last blog entry on him.

dont forget to remember me~

12more days to Thai!!

counting down

2006-12-10T00:13:00.000-08:00

boring but pleasant weekends. i have spent my weekends at home reading books.
the title goes "Drawing on the right side of the brain"
hmm..interesting yea the title? this book cost me $30!! haha but teh content is superb!
i like this book. or mayb because im pursuing an art future thats y im so enthu into this book=)

sunday afternoon was brite n hot. decided to do my laundry. sometimes after washing the loads of clothes
i do feel teh satisfaction. haha~

ok, counting down to my Thai trip..13days!! can say exactly 2more wks to go.

yippee!=)

heyhey! i miss sch!! haha

2nd of dec

2006-12-02T08:31:00.000-08:00

its 2nd dec today..and im hoping to get my pay asap.. *hint
because my boss alws gave us pay at later dates..and causing us to wait n wait
haha.. today xiao hui n i went to town n bugis.. was rushing against time,we have got
so much to shop mann..ahha.. and ta-da my new hairstyle! haha.. actually i dont really
know wad kind of hairstyle i want this time..and ya..bob hair again..quite like it =p

counting down to my Thai trip on 23rd dec.. left 21days..

=)

drown in my work

2006-11-15T08:03:00.000-08:00

im so so tired today.went to work at mitju arcade and walk damn fast to wisma isetan
to work.ok,all for the money. but it sure worth it cos i am gg Thai!! haha..
countdown:39days to my thai trip

i miss him!! argh. i tot its all over?? why am i so useless!? STOP thinking of him now!
i could stil rmbr our last date..exactly,clear n it definitely did hurts me. if only i knew
that was our last date,i will hug yoou tight,never let you go.

...and smooch you with lots of kisses!! Yes!! lots n lots of kisses.. hais.

how are you now?

c'mon

2006-11-03T22:06:00.000-08:00

yea~after assesment i went out wit my frenz for a movie at cine.-Prestige.
and ytd i went out wit the big grp to river view hotel for some buffet..yummy!
........kinda spoil my diet plan...haha.
haha yea,i am enjoying my holiday now mann. Lasalle makes me appreciate
wad is holidaayy!! i pass my assesment. hopefully aiming for a 'B'..haha.
o ya.and sawn is so unforgettable!!! hahaha...
and for now i must save n save!! save as much money as possible!! I m gg Thailand!!! haha
Thailand here i comes~~~~~the conutry i have been yearning to gO!! HAHA..leaving sg on 23rd dec..

i guess im not missing u anymore. its all memory.

assesment day

2006-10-27T08:03:00.000-07:00

ok...my assesment day is on tues and im left with 3 1/2days to complete my work(from
day 1 till now) help!! and i stil went out shopping today! haha! shitty.. gonna rush now..

....and i saw him at far east today. I miss U!!

"goong" is damn nice okie... everyone pls go watch it! haha.. really fantastic!

ok..back to my stupid external... zzzz

argh!

2006-10-18T08:25:00.001-07:00

im tired!!! someone help me pls.. i hate essays and i hate school work now!
im runnign out of ideas.. cant we just do w/o giving explaination why..why is this
so so.. how we get the idea? tt wll be better isnt it? so tt our ideas will not be restrained
by rules n regulation. im tired im tired!!!! argh..

argh!

2006-10-18T08:25:00.000-07:00

work load

2006-10-16T06:34:00.000-07:00

c'mon tell me its not true. my assesment is on the 31st. and this coming thurs i have to hand in
another 500words essay n lots of re-do work. very stress mann..first im not gd at writing,second, im not gd at computer skill but i ought to thank benjamin. he helped mi alot..really alot mann..
i need some shopping therapy to ease my stress!!
Now i guess my bro has jz found out that his sister is actually
a crazy asshooolee.. i have been screaming n shouting at home when dealing wit photoshop!!! hate it man.

im feeling really very gan cheong noww.... help!!

hazy haze..go away.. i wana go jogging la..go away! haha

i have my planning for the first ever holiday.
1) down at the beach..sending my misses away by the breeze
2)hopefully BBQ.. or BUFFET!!! eat and eat!! hohoho
3)shopping!! continuosly 3days!! any1?
4).......after shopping i will be broke..so wORK n worK.. =)

empty.

2006-10-13T21:43:00.000-07:00

Last night was really hard to pass..reach home from orchard at 1030..start
on my research..and the sudden emptiness came to haunt me. really feeling down..
but i told myself..."ok..i let myself cry..after crying be good n move on." so guessed wad..
i cried myself to sleep.

I only wana be ur fren. how r u now?

my "exam" is on 31st..i cant wait for holidays! den i will keep working..work n work..haha..

these blues

2006-10-11T07:26:00.001-07:00

i dreamt of him last night. felt really terrible after i woke up.the image wasnt vivid,
all turn out clear n fresh in my mind. how do i move on.. i want to..but its hard.

im getting lazier nowadays n my assesment is on 31st.hopefully i m able to score well..
pray hardd for me ok!=p
haha..

hmm.. was quite happy today..ha..was walking ard Fine Arts 3rd level and due to my
"curiousity" i went in to look at every work(painting,charcoal) etc.. was damn gd la~!
im not exaggerating but they r really gd! wellll....tts my lifee next yr.. =))
o ya..happy becos of dis really long story. lazy to type it here. ask mi personally next
time yea..haha =p

ok.. tik tts all folks..

these blues

2006-10-11T07:26:00.000-07:00

my hartt

2006-09-30T08:48:00.000-07:00

yea finally finished part of my internal drawing. it
jz accumulated over wks..horrible mann. rossalyn nids some
counselling mann. haha!

went out shopping at 8 n found the tops i wanted.hippy!=)

imiss you...alotalotalot.argh. my tears have dried up,thank god.

im stressed up! wher r u?

2006-09-28T06:22:00.000-07:00

what m i supposed to do with all this blues?
where are you now? where are you when i needed you the most? wad r u thinking now?
give me some words of encouragement! i need it badly now. let me stay on..

im really stressed up today! i got a spilt headache when i woke up this morning.
reached workplace early n ate my fav fish noodle! yum! work was fine..nth much happened.

reached hm and i started on my photoshop. Im dead meat this time. i need to re-do and im stuck!
i didnt quite like wad i was doing,so now i got to wait till next monday for benjamin(comp-pro) to
help me.argh.why cant i do it myself.hate it mann! hai. after blogging im gonna start on my 2D
and internal. time please stop now!
i hate having so much homework,cant even have a good sleep.
hai..but i tend to appreciate it now.it helps mi to forget you.i noe u noe how i feel so why r u doing all this to me?

kiss gdbye

2006-09-22T21:19:00.000-07:00

i guessed i asked for too much.i went over the boundary.
i thank you for loving me. go find ur freedom. go find yourself back.
everything will be in my memory. mayb i will wait for u.
you know smth,i really hated you. hated you for treating me this way.
but promise me u will be happy. we r still frenz ya? =)

i ~~hate~~love you

dao suanS

2006-09-16T22:58:00.000-07:00

never have enuff of y'll company!! miss u all!! =)

damn bored wkend

2006-09-16T22:52:00.000-07:00

very bored! its sunday today and im home. but luckily not home alone.(cuz i alws do)
just completed my final piece for 2D. jz pray tt my lect understands wad im trying to tell
from my drawing..keke. *hint* ...ok mayb dao suan dey noe wad i mean.ha! evil me.
next wk is the assesment wk..gradegradegrade! feeling real stress and theres this thing
which jz kip bothering me. sighh~ dao suan help!

im back

2006-03-18T00:19:00.000-08:00

hi everyone..yes im back.. for good? mayb...

reecently alot of things happened.alot of chges.i hav to learn to take it and yes..accept it.
throw away my hot-temper..throw away my stubborness!
i love my bunch of bird-park cum dao suan cum "diao" frenz!!! my god they rock my socks mann!=)

its been 1mth.